trying to be better, more interesting, social, prettier
I’ve been reading more and trying to plan some art stuff I guess / hard without a studio or funds. thinking larger – abstract and concrete // getting anxious about whether my work is cool which is dumb but I wanna be liked or something

work has been so stressful and makes me so tired I find it hard to do my assignments // got an extension from the doctors because I keep getting migraines / feeling bad mental health wise again // I’m hopefully having a meeting with my boss on tuesday to talk about a raise and official change of my position  
I’ve been out 4 nights in a row this week but each time at a certain point I feel too ugly and boring to be around people // spending a lot of time with aboy which is nice but I get very embarrassed by myself when I’m around him // not pretty or smart enough // every time I leave I tell people I’m tried or sick but I’m just overwhelmed